28 5 / 2012
Which will happen before you know it.
I have to remember that.
10 3 / 2012
"Women who strive to be equal to men lack ambition."
08 1 / 2012
"One is astonished in the study of history at the recurrence of the idea that evil must be forgotten, distorted, skimmed over. We must not remember that Daniel Webster got drunk but only that he was a splendid constitutional lawyer. We must forget that George Washington was a slave owner … and simply remember the things we regard as creditable and inspiring. The difficulty, of course, with this philosophy is that history loses its value as an incentive and example; it paints perfect man and noble nations, but it does not tell the truth."
08 1 / 2012
drunkintelligence asked: why did god wait so long to make the perfect human being? she's stunning, intellectual, and has an addiction to fashion and men with beards; and she is perfection.
lolllll you’re ridiculous!!!
31 12 / 2011
"She was a genius of sadness, immersing herself in it, separating its numerous strands, appreciating its subtle nuances. She was a prism through which sadness could be divided into its infinite spectrum."
08 12 / 2011
Or What I’ve Learned This Last Year:
I expected to re-read my note about turning 19 and find it idiotic, thinking that maybe I may have matured so much in the past year that my previous notions were childish. In fact, I was surprised to learn that I, albeit unknowingly, followed the advice I had dispensed to myself the entire year. I guess the lessons I said I learned during my eighteenth year of life really stuck with me because a full year later, they still ring true. The important ones I’ll restate here:
1. It’s okay to make a mistake, or even a lot, as long as you still pull yourself together before it becomes too late to do so. It’s better to be passionate than apathetic, but never settle for what you know makes you unhappy because of fear of change.
3. Take every opportunity you can.
4. Cherish the power of love; I learned there is probably no greater happiness than being romantically involved with someone you absolutely adore who adores you back. Don’t stop looking till you find it.
5. Accept situations for what they are because you won’t be able to always adapt when something goes wrong. Pray for the best and hope for the future.
6. Work hard at a goal you want to achieve. It isn’t always rewarded right away, but I think what separates those who consider themselves successful and those who don’t is tenacity.
Take a look through my notes if you’re interested in rereading the rest of 19.
I don’t want to make 20. too long, but in an effort to write something new and solely about the last year I just finished today, I’ll talk about a project I embarked on through my blog. After Stumble-ing on a list of 365 Simple Pleasures in January, I decided to challenge myself to do all of them by my next birthday. While I did get through all of them, it’s important in the sense of how I documented an entire year. Looking back I realize what really made up this year.
This was the year of working incredibly hard to break out into the media industry, of losing some friendships but strengthening the ones I already had, of watching endless hours of True Blood and Damages, but no Mad Men, of Lady Gaga’s croons proving to me that a strong female doesn’t need permission from anyone, of re-reading old favorite classics, of buying more summer dresses than I really needed, of saying countless goodbyes, of meeting new people on chilly winter nights.
It was the year of having a true summer romance, of finally getting over my most serious relationship to date, of realizing I could meet someone new who made me feel just as good, of sleeping on a murphy bed on Miami Beach for three months, of not having enough intellectual estrogen sessions with Meghan Bradshaw, of eating mexican with Nicole and finishing each other’s sentences when it comes to relationships, of laughing at lunches with Damian Boos, of learning to love Indian food because of Benjamin Welsh, of having Maurice Singletary inspire me in times when I needed it most, of Vinny Ferranda making me laugh in moments I only thought I could cry, of laughing at inside jokes with my mother via text message, of missing my family and my dogs, and last but certainly not least, of finally having a best girl friend who truly understands me again in Deborah Brownell, to whom I am invariably indebted to and eternally grateful.
And so, I’ll end this note with words from a birthday card I received from one of my friends. He told me it was because of me that he learned that what’s right for some isn’t necessarily right for all, that significant situations are also complex ones, and that it’s incredibly important to march to the beat of your own drum. He ended the letter by saying he wishes me great music, great thoughts, and great love in this next year of my life because those are what evoke the deepest feelings of life in us. I couldn’t agree more.